Anyone else weirdly relieved and guilty about it?

Sending you so much strength. The first few weeks are the hardest and they do pass. Same boat, Surrey side. Reach out anytime — this community got me through.

Relief after a hard decision is information, not a verdict on your character. Guilt is often just the echo of caring, and the two can share a room. Nothing is wrong with you.

I see this combination in clients constantly, and I tell them the same thing every time: relief usually means the decision matched reality. The guilt tends to outlast its usefulness. Be patient with both.